Night One

Sep. 21st, 2017 03:49 am
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So she didn't wake up at 3:30 as promised and ignored my text asking her if she was ready to switch. So I went upstairs and told her it was time to switch.

It's super annoying she thinks this behavior is okay. But anyway.




ETA: I came down in the morning and she had closed the door where she was and had fallen asleep again!!! She hadn't started the hot breakfast!

I officially called her out on it so if she's still just sleeping all night at this point it's just tough shit for her.

Global Warming

Sep. 21st, 2017 03:47 am
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 ... is not new, is more solid than ever, but people still aren't listening.

Things

Sep. 21st, 2017 01:17 am
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So, at work, I've decided I'm just going to try and set stricter boundaries with Monique. Part of what we'll be doing (which we should be doing anyway) is stay in a room where the door can lock if we're having a sleeping break. That way clients can't walk in and realize one of us is asleep.

It also means that if I'm awake, Monique will not have cause to turn off her alarm and go back to sleep. She'll have no reason to think I'm doing checks anyway. And that's how it should be. Regardless of if I'm sleeping or working, the point of dividing checks that way is so one person can have downtime. If I'm studying TEFL or nursing, it shouldn't matter.

The other thing I'm thinking about suggesting is that instead of dividing the sleep each night, we instead separate it by day. Monique has already cut Thursdays from her work week, so my thought is I stay awake Sunday and Monday night and she stays awake Tuesday and Wednesday night. Then the other Sara (who works with me Thursdays) and I will switch off - one week I'm awake all night, one week she's awake all night.

That way instead of two severely sleep-deprived people, there is one person who is awake and one person who is resting their entire shift (unless there is an emergency.) Whoever is taking the lead that night is fully rested, and since the resting person will have mostly uninterrupted sleep, they should recover better if they need to get up.




So, I can't remember what happened, but there was some conversation about seeking co-parents so I looked up the website. I thought it was going to be single parents looking for people to team up (e.g. a teacher, a nurse, a firefighter, and a store clerk cooperating together so that they can save money on child-care.)

And I looked up the website and I couldn't find out more without making an account, but it's actually people looking either for free sperm donation, either without parenting rights or with the goal of co-parenting (as in, both parties actively taking part in the child's life in terms of legal, kinship, and fiscal ways.)

That was not what I was expecting! But you know? Actually sort of cool. I'm glad to see the options of how people start and maintain families increasing. Some friends I have can't have kids on their own and I thought co-parenting with them would be cool. Seems like there would be more cooperation and less likeliness of a horrible blowup than in a situation where the parenting is tied to a romantic relationship.

I think the funniest thing is that men on that website are waaaaaaay less creepy/skeevy. Nothing chases away the creepy men like 'co-parent' as part of your search.

orange!verse fic: Modulation

Sep. 20th, 2017 08:57 pm
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Modulation )

Notes talk below the speakers, pun alert:

*Carlos is speaking and thinking in Brazilian Portuguese, as well as speaking Dutch. Caryn is at least trying to speak Dutch. Translations:

We komen uit Canada. Wij kunnen u helpen.: We're from Canada. We can help you.

Um, dois, trĂªs: one, two, three

Jij bent--: You are--

E agora: and now

*Coyote is a term for people smugglers of the far less scrupulous kind.
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Scientists have discovered a geometric shape at the center of reality, whose form defines the behavior of particles.  It's a lot simpler than trying to calculate by hand the way those things move.  It goes from hundreds of pages of math to one. 

Meanwhile I'm laughing my ass off because, well, om mani padme hum.  Not the sound of the chant, but it's literal meaning: the jewel in the heart of the lotus.  Mystical people have been staring at this thing forever, because A) it's inspiring, B) it's really pretty, and C) when you're out of your body on a lot of other dimensions it tends to be right in front of your face and kind of hard to ignore.  Which is okay because A and B.  :D  Anyhow, quantum mechanics might like to take a look at the prismatic branch of sacred art.  Perhaps it will prove inspiring.  Because quantum physics is where magic and science meet, which is why it's cool.  I may not be able to hack the math, but quantum physics still makes my existential intelligence sit up and go squee.

On the downside, this means people are getting reeeeeaaaalllly close to figuring out graviton technology.  This is about as relaxing as realizing that the toddler has just about figured out how to turn on the blowtorch.  O_O  

Birdfeeding

Sep. 20th, 2017 06:22 pm
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A few days ago, I filled the birdfeeders.  Today I saw a mourning dove on the fly-through feeder, so at least one bird has discovered the seed.  \o/ 
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For those of you who don't know, the Barna research group is a group that focuses on researching religious trends in America.  Although they are very DEFINITELY Christian and doing this for a Christian audience, they are also quite firm in their belief that in order to make good choices people need good, reliable information to base it on.  So they're pretty good about being as fair and accurate as they can in their research practices.

Their newest finding?  That in the last year, public opinion in America has swung quite dramatically in favor of immigration, diversity, and refugees, with most population segments adding at least 10% to their approval.  And practicing Christians who believe the US should welcome refugees more than doubled between 2016 and 2017, which is why there are currently more religious leaders across the board speaking to refugee and immigration issues.  (Evangelicals are the lone holdouts, surprise, surprise.)  For example, the Christian community is pretty much united in opposition to ending or limiting the DREAM program.  Even the Evangelicals agree there.

Unfortunately, the shift doesn't seem to be from racists, nationalists, and other right-wingers changing their minds.  Where the shift seems to be coming from is the people who were undecided a year ago moving towards open-mindedness, tolerance, and compassion.  So it's not that the whole country is moving towards tolerance, it's that the people in the middle are moving leftward on this issue.  Which is good, don't get me wrong!  It just means we've got our work cut out for us to reach out to the Evangelicals and the FOX newsers and all and help them see things in a different light.

(Obviously I'm not talking to people who aren't safe or wouldn't be safe if they tried to reach out, whether psychologically or physically.

Hard Things

Sep. 20th, 2017 03:50 am
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Life is full of things which are hard or tedious or otherwise unpleasant that need doing anyhow. They help make the world go 'round, they improve skills, and they boost your sense of self-respect. But doing them still kinda sucks. It's all the more difficult to do those things when nobody appreciates it. Happily, blogging allows us to share our accomplishments and pat each other on the back.

What are some of the hard things you've done recently? What are some hard things you haven't gotten to yet, but need to do?

Nursing Vs. Counseling

Sep. 19th, 2017 11:33 pm
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I think instead I'd rather do nursing and social work, with some counseling training.

I've been reading up on it and apparently a lot of rehabilitation therapies are not seen as particularly scientifically sound.

I'm wondering why, for instance, the facilities in these areas (no specific one) don't focus on anti-opiods such as naltrene over the Twelve-Step program, which have scientifically sound evidence that they are effective against addiction. Apparently the USA is far far behind other developed countries in their approach to addiction.




In learning about all of this, I'm going to try taking Contrave this year and see if it helps me stop binge-eating. Treat my problem like an illness and try to approach it as such.

Pears in Progress

Sep. 19th, 2017 10:38 pm
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I got back out to pick up pears, so we cleaned half a bucket of them, and I put the bits in a crockpot to cook into pie filling.  :D

Lol

Sep. 19th, 2017 07:04 pm
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Isha said Makayla had walked the into Monique snoring because she was so loud.

Okay, THAT doesn't sound like Monique. That might have been me. I know people have told me I snore pretty loudly. (I don't get HOW, since I don't have tonsils or adenoids. Also, I record myself sleeping sometimes - to try to catch me snoring and how bad, since people have woken me up less than an hour after me falling asleep to tell me I was being loud - and it never seems to catch snoring. It's like my brain doesn't do those bad habits when I'm watching myself.)

There's no way that happened recently though cuz we don't go in that room anymore. And well, I don't think I've slept during a shift in weeks. I kept getting more and more anxious about Monique's pattern. It's possible I dozed off once or twice during the time we were in that room.

However: Regardless, I'm now trying to research what legitimate ways there are to stop snoring.

Tuesday Yardening

Sep. 19th, 2017 04:24 pm
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Today is warm, partly cloudy, and muggy.  We went out to the orchard and removed many many field weeds from under the pear tree.  It is a bumper year for pears, they are all over the ground already, with plenty left overhead.  If I have the energy, I'll go back out later and pick up a bucket of them to make pie filling. 

UGH

Sep. 19th, 2017 04:56 am
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Due to circumstances at work tonight I was convinced to go in and now my co-worker is sleeping again.

I resent letting my guilt and concern manipulate me that way.
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Ana annoys me with how much she believes in conspiracy theories and how right-wing she is, but sometimes she manages to ask things that are eerily on-point with where my emotions are at.

... Granted, because she believes PCOS is a conspiracy to punish women by making them infertile and because she knows I'm in my thirties. But eerily on point with where a lot of my thoughts have been since that woman was telling me how much her life changed after she got pregnant and just generally feeling incredibly stuck and without choices in life.

Conversations I feel like I can't have with anyone. Like, if I have those conversations with anyone, they'll totally freak out. Either because my friends who are women will think I'm thinking seriously about trying, or the men in my life will be worried I'm going to ask them to be a sperm donor.*

Ana doesn't even know about the sexual dysfunction, I don't think. So the question from her is a lot more eery. Like if Alicia had asked, it's like, she knows I have this barrier in my life that sort of makes my life complicated in the family planning/starting aspect.

*I guess I'd be worried about that too. I guess it's not such a far-flung theory that if I ever went that route I'd want it to be someone I knew. But I usually find it's easier to talk to men about S.D. stuff.

Leaving Academia

Sep. 19th, 2017 03:16 am
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Here is an essay about a professor leaving academia

I went to U of I.  There were parts of it that I enjoyed, and the culture wasn't that bad.  But I can see parallels.  For me it was more a matter of looking at the way education was going, and deciding not to get involved in public education as a teacher.  It was obviously going down the tubes, and that was decades ago; it's infinitely worse now.  So too, many colleges.  :/  I couldn't stop it.  I could sure get the hell out of the way.

Poem: "So Closely Allied"

Sep. 19th, 2017 02:34 am
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This poem is spillover from the February 2, 2016 Poetry Fishbowl. It was inspired by prompts from [livejournal.com profile] my_partner_doug, [personal profile] wyld_dandelyon, and [personal profile] chanter_greenie. It also fills the "separation and reunion" square in my 1-23-16 card for the Valentines Bingo fest. This poem has been posted as a birthday present for [personal profile] callibr8. It belongs to the series Polychrome Heroics.

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OH MY GOD

Sep. 18th, 2017 11:40 pm
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Monique literally lost her shit when she found out I wasn't coming in tonight. I'd gotten permission from Isha around 6pm.

The real reason is that she's pissed off she won't get to sit there turning off her alarm and going back to sleep all night without getting up until 6:40am.

This was it. I decided even if it means sleeping privileges are revoked, I'm going to talk to Isha about how Monique oversleeps during the shift. I can't stand that she has the gall to do 1-2 checks the entire night last night and kept turning off her alarm and now she wants to whine that I'm not coming in again so she can do the same bullshit tonight.

I even pretended to fall asleep last night to see if she would do the checks? And she didn't. I literally saw her still turning off her alarm and going back to sleep. I still had to get up and do the checks because she wouldn't.

That's the only reason why I would want to cut my hours. It's not like I thought it'd be super awesome to make less money. It's because it's causing to much sleep deprivation and resentment of my co-worker.

Poem: "Learning and Growing"

Sep. 18th, 2017 11:14 pm
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This poem is spillover from the September 5, 2017 Poetry Fishbowl. It was inspired by prompts from [personal profile] sweet_sparrow, [personal profile] technoshaman, [personal profile] readera, [personal profile] gingicat, [personal profile] ari_the_dodecahedron, and [personal profile] librarygeek. It also fills the "vampires" square in my 1-1-17 card for the Dark Fantasy Bingo fest. This poem has been sponsored by [personal profile] janetmiles. It belongs to the series Frankenstein's Family.

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